The titillating and unmistakable thing about growth of any kind is that there's only one way to perceive it - with immense amount of happiness, relief, excitement, and anticipation for the future.
Much in the way parents watch their children grow, I've watched Desert Mannequin take slow and steady steps towards its future. While impatience was once a key attribute I unfortunately used to exercise repeatedly, time and maturity have allowed that to evolve into perseverance. Granted there were several times, perhaps on a monthly basis where I would stop to ask myself, "Are you fucking crazy? Do you REALLY think this will go anywhere?"
Often times I pondered if it was time to hang up my hat and shoes, and consider a 9-5 (though I'd sooner die...)
I think it's actually healthy and beneficial to deem yourself a loser every now and again, because that in affect tends to ignite a sizable fire under your ass that we all need from time to time in order to power forward. It hurts, but it works. Trust me.
When I was handed over the keys to my new office, I took a deep breath, looked around, marveled over the herringbone wood floors and ceilings, and realized that I wouldn't have gotten this far if I weren't meant to go further. I'm here because I'm meant to see this thing through. Fuck! Could this very well be DM's adolescent years in the offing?
Waqas remarked in the background, "You wanted to launch a podcast, and you did! You always wanted to design a clothing line, and you are with NDUO. Don't treat your new office any differently. You've longed for it since you switched your business into high-gear, and look, here it is!!!"
I gulped down my pride and glee (like one does their daily dose of multi-vitamins), and quickly jumped to thoughts of how I was going to set the place up. I wanted plants... lots of them. And I was going to keep the darn things alive!
I slowly started moving in, inhabiting the place with books, shoes, writing pads, candy, perfumes, boxes of shipments, my record player, etc. That's when it started to feel like home... Desert Mannequin's home.
Come visit me. Let's have lunch. I'm always up for stimulating conversations, making new friends!